Baby Shower

I'm a big girl today.
Today, I took a shower all by myself--because Mommy asked me.
She asked me and thinks I can do it.
I turned the frosted silver knob--not too hot she would say.
Be careful.
I am.

I'm a big girl today.
I made sure I washed every inch--twice.
I use soap and my scrub brush.
I let the water rinse me clean.
My skin is red and tingly.
I feel older.
I am.

I'm a big girl today.
When I turn the water off the cold air
Hits my skin.
I find my towel and my pajamas
Mommy laid out for me. I
Start to dry off the way Daddy showed me.
But I can do it now. Because I am big.
I hear Mommy on the phone.
She's sad.
I am too.

I'm a big girl today.
I hang up my towel and sit on my bed.
This is where I prayed to God for
A little brother. I prayed
so hard. Every night.
I am

Going to be a big sister again.
But Mommy's crying.
She said she has to go to the doctors with Daddy and
Grandma is coming over and I have to be a big girl and
Go to bed.
I do.

I'm a big sister once. But not twice.
Not anymore.
Mommy's baby is gone.
I feel older.
I am.